Inside My Mind, As Well As Out

Inside my mind,
I am as brash as the next guy.
Lots of lies.
Stories I tell,
Still keeping up with each one.
Never losing track with my lies.
Inside my mind I curse out loud.
Inside my mind.
Inside my mind there are things that noone knows.
But outside my mind,
Is a different act.
A wack white girl walking down the halls and singing...
Opera.
Wearing all black from head to toe,
No, I am not what you think you see.
What you see is not what you get,
In my case anyways.
Outside my mind,
Is a face I can't stand each time I walk past a mirror.
It's the Ace missing from your deck of cards.
I am the last resort when it comes to dating.
The fating lies that the Gods put together.
When they put me and you together.
But seriously, inside my mind,
I am a shy girl waiting to burst forth with bravery.
Waiting to say something long to said,
But unheard.
Just that shy, shy, three year old I once and still am.
But outside I am the loudest voice in the group!
The one you turn to.
The one who isn't afraid of anything.
Except! Getting closer to you.
True, Inside and Out I am shy of certain things.
I do have fears, I am not fearless.
Careless? I am.
Lie-less? Sinless? I am not.
You are my Sin.
That hidden thought deep within,
My mind.
You are the poetry on my pen.
The name I think when I think love.
And who are you, you're asking?
You are nothing.
Noone.
You do not exist.
A miss I do not miss.
Since I have never loved you truly.
Do you really believe that this work of art is about you?
I do not think it's true.
But again I shall tell you this.
You are nothing-ness, my heart and my soul.
You are...
Silence.